Journal Archive - 2000 |
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Santa Rita Abbey |
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Sonoita, Arizona |
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December 16, 2000
December 3, 2000
September 21, 2000 September 5, 2000 September 4, 2000
August 24, 2000 The grasshoppers are formally known as dactylotum bicolor. We are entertaining three sub-species of this, in addition to one that's pure black and doubtless is formally something else. Some get into the house-there are little corpses here and there. Most cover the outside west-facing walls, if they are not in the grass and leaping up in clouds wherever you walk. Pam took down the screens on the refectory west windows and got aluminum subs. The screens we had were evidently edible to grasshoppers. With a bit of scientific interest, you can study the various color patterns with pleasure. One rather phlegmatic gang is so brightly patched that it could hire itself out as an air balloon. And after all, they could be snakes. Yesterday Clare said, "The monsoon season is ending now." "What monsoon season?" We've had about three full rains since June, with a few scattered showers to convince us that indeed there is such a thing as water. Some of the trees (non-native) are dropping yellow leaves, but on the whole, the vegetation has held up admirably. We feel great compassion for the places to which the drought has brought economic and ecological disaster, along with terrible fires. Four of us attended the Solemn Profession of Sister Mary Francis, who is a member of a lovely, innovative community sharing our southern Arizona Benedictine presence over in Saint David's. This group (Holy Trinity Monastery) belongs to the Olivetan Benedictines, wear white habits, and has formed a community of monks, nuns, and lay Oblates. The sudden death of their founder and charismatic leader, Father Louis, last year, was a trauma, but Father Henri, his sub-prior, has carried on, and the vitality of the little group is very evident. Their location seems almost tropical with lush vegetation, very nicely landscaped, in which they have established a complex of buildings to house their various activities. The Profession ceremony was both sacred and warmly informal in character. A lively group of singers from Phoenix's Pongan community led the singing, Sr. Mary Francis met her guests at the door of the church before the Mass, and a lovely dinner followed the ceremony. Fr Henri had called us, in something of despair, a few months beforehand, wondering if we knew a place which could make Sister's cowl. Our Cecile graciously offered, and it looked exquisitely beautiful as Sr. Mary Francis stood by the altar after the usual struggle of the newly Professed to get inside all those yards of fabric. It hung just perfectly. We drove home under one of those incomparable Arizona sunsets. We have elected Sr. Margarita as delegate to the Regional Meeting. The men don't use boom boxes, T.G.--Rich respects our life style. A very good man. At this point, the floor of the freezer compartment has been laid, and they are building up the walls. I found a nice book in the library on how to recoup one's creativity. I will let you know how it goes. I listen to a lot of music.
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August 18, 2000 The grasshoppers with which nature has provided us this year are, technically, dactylotum bicolor. Their popular name is rainbow grasshoppers, and you can't deny that they are pretty. The first wave (grey backs, yellow bellies, and black and white striped legs) was followed by another group which are colorful in the style of Navajo blankets. These animated works of art are, however, inconveniently numerous. We have had to replace the screens on the western side of the refectory. They eat whatever the screens were formerly made of. This is the monsoon season, and the most flamboyant thunderstorms blast you out of bed only to leave a third of an inch of rain behind. They are perfectly glorious to watch, rain or no rain. The sky and the mountains take on a particularly rich shade of Prussian blue. Clouds boil, the setting sun sneaks in a banner of peach, and you feel that no place in the world gives you a better show. On the 21st of July, we received word from our founding house in Wrentham, Massachusetts that their lovely young Sister Margaret had died. She had gone on portress duty at noon, called the infirmarian shortly afterwards, and was rushed to the Emergency Room. Twelve hours later, she had gone to God. The community was in shock. Our Santa Rita Sisters Cecile, Rita, and Miriam had been scheduled for a later trip to Wrentham; they revised their tickets and left immediately, wanting to be a loving presence to our sisters, and especially to Meg's lovely, grieving family, to whom she was the world and more. Sr. Margaret was exceptionally pretty and that was what you noticed first. She was small and slim with delicate features and luminous eyes. Never one to put herself forward in a group, beneath the initial reserve she hid a champagne personality--warm, witty, full of the joy of life. The slightest effort could uncover this delightful presence. Sent to Virginia on the new foundation, she was driven back to Wrentham thirteen months later severely ill. A routine check for the community's blood donation had disclosed a dangerously low level of red cells, and at the age of 33, she was returning to a diagnosis of acute leukemia. At this point in her life, Meg's monastic journey took a unique turn. Her road was to end in splendor twelve years later, a road crafted for her, for her wonderful family, and for her monastic communities, all of whom walked it with her. We waited through chemo and radiation and the testing of her siblings for a bone marrow match; rejoiced at the news that the last and youngest of the family could save her life with the donation of his own blood-producing marrow; and held our collective breath the day he watched as his sister received a transfusion of his own life. Then came the months of isolation and the balancing of medication, the return to a life that was normal, but never wholly secure. Meg remained at Wrentham, and continued to do what her sisters did. She loved the liturgy and served enthusiastically the community's daily liturgical needs. She took an intensive correspondence course in liturgy, a course which she finished shortly before her death. Her last service to the community moved her from liturgy work to the kitchen as food cellerer. She had done so well, but then came a slowing-down, as her body resisted the spunky spirit that had kept it going all those years. Meg was no stranger to crises, but from them all she had come smiling back. This time the home she was to come back to was heaven. The cerebral hemorrhage that took her life sent her running into the arms of God. She was 45 years old. Our monastic funeral customs have undergone renewal. Meg's family could sit in prayer beside the bier, could enter all the ceremonies with the sisters, hug and cry with them, knowing themselves one heart and mind with their daughter's monastic family. The two families merged in their love and their grief, and in the faith which in spite of the shock, could know that this lovely creation of God which was their Peggy and our Meg had fulfilled her life and had enter into a secure and joyful eternity. That was what you not only felt but knew. You saw, above her youthful face, the grey hair which had been the result of radiation therapy, and knew that she had lived a long, full life in spite of anything the calendar might say. Her illness had been a demanding tutor, her monastic fidelity and her loving heart had cooperated in the formation of a full life in a short span. Meg had asked for monastic burial-an open bier. The funeral people had tilted her head slightly to the right, and she looked like a young, sleeping princess. Her small feet wore the mocs in which she had carried out her daily service for so long. As we practiced the burial ceremonies, we could look into the grave and see its floor blanketed with fern. The cemetery was lush and green from a rainy summer. Meg's two brothers, Marty and Michael (who also did the Mass readings), and her sister Mary Kay, acted as pallbearers together with two Wrentham Sisters. The Cloister through which the bier was carried to the cemetery was shadowed, and when the procession left it, brilliant sunlight embraced Meg, and her father whispered, "It's so beautiful here." The sister who held Meg's mother's hand throughout the burial will always cherish that unique and beautiful privilege. The luncheon after a funeral has always seemed to our communities a healing and sacramental thing. It was so here also-a kind of Eucharist in which everyone who loved Meg could break bread together and realize their union with a loved being who had gone before only in body and was closer to us than before. The sorrow and the pain are not washed away but sacramentalized. And a little of the sun comes through.
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Some months are longer than others. Some minutes are longer than hours. Our loved and loving Mother Beverly has led our community as prioress for the past ten years. During the previous eighteen years, she had served as novice director, welcoming our new sisters and forming them to the Cistercian heritage. Now her service on earth has ended, and she has found forever the great desire of her heart. At five of four on the twenty-first of May, as the community was beginning the last nocturne of Vigils, the Resurrection Nocturne, Mother Beverly went to God. It was the anniversary of the death of our martyrs of Atlas in Algeria, to whom she had a strong devotion. They had come to take her home. Beverly suffered long and generously with the cancer which led her on the final stage of her journey. She said at one point that, "No one should preach the Gospel without knowing what the words mean: ‘I thirst.’" She was not referring simply to the physical thirst which tormented her, but also to something deeper in the human heart. The minutes and the hours were indeed long, as she responded to the last and greatest call of Him whom she so loved. A medical technician came one evening to set up her IV. He had lost his lovely young daughter to an automobile accident, and he and Bev talked about death, and how it was not something to be feared. She wondered aloud what heaven would be like, could she walk on the shore by the ocean, could she do a lot of the things she loved about earthly life, would she meet John of Ford. Both her oncologists came out to see her. The radiologist, a woman, came on Mother’s Day: "This is my Mothers’ Day present to myself." The oncologist who managed the chemotherapy came the day before she died. He is a very large and devout Jewish man, and he was there practically before Sr Gabriella, her nurse, finished her phone call telling him that Bev was dying. He knelt beside her bed for what must have been two hours, in perfectly silent prayer, resting his huge, gentle hands on her head and on her tumor. It was a perfect image of the Heavenly Father taking her into his arms and saying, "My child, it’s almost over. It’s all been worth it, and you can come home. I am so proud of you." At one point she opened her arms in a position of crucifixion, and he cradled her wrist next to his chin. That evening, Sr. Cecile, our founding superior, who had also been caring for Beverly with her special charism for the sick, said she hoped Bev would go the next day, the anniversary of the Atlas Martyrs. Gabriella had beeped us in church when she saw Beverly slipping away, and we came just as she had gone home. While the bells tolled, we knelt around her bed. Father Robert arrived to recite the prayers for the departed soul. We even assisted in placing her body in the funeral director’s van and watched as it drove off. Her sisters wanted to serve her as long as they could. On Monday at Four PM, we received the body with a simple ceremony, presided over by Dom Joseph of Snowmass, and began our all-night Vigil. The guest chapel was full for the funeral next morning at ten. Our Father Immediate, Dom Leander presided as principle concelebrant, and Dom Damian Carr of Spencer, at our request, preached the homily--on Bev as listener to the Word. We had a simple reception, comforted the comforters, and received the deeply felt tributes to our Beverly. Her brother Gary, his wife Martha and her step-mother Phyllis were all with us, as well as a group of abbots and abbesses from the US region. Several others wanted badly to come but were stymied by the suddenness of a death on Memorial Day Weekend. Mother Marion of Our Lady of Angels gave us a lovely talk Friday on Bev’s self-disclosure as "biographer" of John of Ford. And on Ascension Day, we had something Bev requested: A community supper with open-faced grilled cheese sandwiches and ice cream. And shared memories of Bev. Keep praying please. This is just one stage of loss. The sisters are magnificent, but we cannot expect the pain to evaporate at once. It has lessons for us all. HELLO, I’M NEW HERE I wish I could meet each one of you face to face, but under the circumstances, I’m glad we can meet through Santa Rita’s home page. My name is Sr. Miriam, and I have been busy sinking my roots into Santa Rita’s glorious landscape and her incomparable community. They say God is full of surprises. I know that. First there was the month after my abbess, Mother Agnes of Santa Rita’s founding house at Wrentham, Massachusetts, told me that the inconceivable was indeed possible, and that I was being considered for election as prioress of this beloved daughter house. I decided that whatever the outcome, it would not hurt to clean and clear, sort and dispose of, arrange and dispossess myself of everything unnecessary. No one seemed to notice this unusual activity, which was just as well. The morning of May First was fairly strained for Mother and myself. "Santa Rita's is three hours behind us. When will the election be over?" Just before dinner the call came. "And please would you come as soon as you can?" The reason was poignant: Dom Leander was there and could wait a day, but if the Installation had to be postponed until Dom Peter came for the Novice Directors’ Meeting, Beverly might well have gone to God. At five thirty AM on May Third, I left Wrentham, and arrived at Santa Rita’s in time to greet Beverly and my new sisters, then find my way through the installation at five PM. I know that none of us will ever forget that ceremony, with Bev in her wheelchair, and she and her sisters promising obedience to her successor with equal parts faith and tears. We received the Novice Directors’ Meeting for a week beginning May Ninth. Yes, Bev was dying, and we had been asked if we were being imprudent, but she was well cared for, and her condition provided a climate of extraordinary grace in which these Cistercian formators could exchange and assist in each others growth. They experienced the sisters’ hospitality and warmth, said it was a wonderful meeting, and went home to help pray us through the last steps of Bev’s road to death and glory. So here we are, picking up the golden threads of Cistercian life in the desert, praying for rain, singing the liturgy, hoping to complete Bev’s plans for replacing a couple of decrepit buildings, and living out the heritage she has left us. The community has been wonderfully welcoming, I am learning new things every day, and planting my heart deep in this beautiful place. Sr. Miriam
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January 9, 2000 - Feast of the Baptism of
the Lord The New Millennium entered quietly. As is our custom, we spent New Year's day in prayer before the Blessed Sacrament, for world peace. Two big events this month: Our Sister Kathy's Solemn Profession on January 9, feast of the Baptism of the Lord, and then a family celebration of our Sister Clare's fifty years of monastic life. She entered at Wrentham--our mother house--on January 10, 1950, and is still going strong! Ad multos annos, Clare!! A very loving thank you to all who were so good to us over the Christmas holidays. We keep you specially in our prayer.
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| November 11, 1999 St.
Martin, Bishop of Tours
November is a beautiful month here in the desert - the live oak are a green as ever, the cottonwoods all in their autumn yellow, the days sunny and warm, and the nights quite cool at our 5000 ft. elevation. The main community endeavor right now is preparing for the imminent arrival of our new automated altar bread equipment. The 'written pole motor' which is to provide three phase electricity has been installed. We want to send out a very special thank you to all our friends who made it possible for us to get this new equipment. We'll keep you posted on how the new machinery works! Another imminent arrival to be celebrated - tomorrow! - is our Sister Vick's return from the General Chapter - the triennial meeting of all the Superiors of the Order which was held this year at Lourdes. Tomorrow we begin practicing for our Christmas carol service which begins a half hour before the Mass at Midnight on Christmas Eve. Advent begins early this year! And so, the daily monastic round continues in its steady, quiet pace of prayer, work and studying the Word of God.
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| October 9, 1999 Saturday of Our Lady
Today we launch our long-planned web site and initiate the first page of Abbey Journal! The summer rainy season is over, the desert range land has lost its unaccustomed green, and the afternoon sun glints through the golden grass heads; the cottonwoods and sycamores are just beginning to turn color. Inside the monastery preparations are under way to send off our delegate to the General Chapter a triennial meeting of Cistercian superiors being held, this time, at Lourdes, France. Of the seventeen monasteries of our Order in this country, at least two are celebrating their 50th anniversary of foundation; Mepkin Abbey in South Carolina, and our own mother house at Wrentham, Massachusetts. We ourselves have been down here, in the high desert country, for nearly 28 years planted firmly on a mesa in the foothills of the Santa Rita Mountains south of Tucson. Fifty years of monastic life is in fact a milestone approaching for one of our sisters who entered the mother house back in 1950. Where does the time go? See you next time! |
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